Regarding her tense relationship with sons Jayden James Federline and Sean Preston Federline, Britney Spears was open and honest about her feelings.

As you are aware, tensions between Brit and her boys have been present ever since Kevin Federline claimed in an interview last month that they no longer want to see the pop star. The former backup dancer shared videos of Britney simply bickering and raising the two kids as their dispute continued to play out in the public eye. After Jayden spoke up about his difficult relationship with his mother, Britney retaliated against the 15-year-“hateful” old’s remarks.

The 40-year-old singer has since addressed the messy situation with her kids once more on Instagram, which she did on Saturday night. Brit did not hold back in expressing her heartbreak over her estrangement from Jayden and Sean in a series of audio clips. She began by referring to her prior custody arrangement with K-Fed, which saw him receiving their sons 70% of the time come 2019:

“I used to have my kids at one point, way more than Kevin, but people don’t remember that part because they always focus on the negative. From when they were six to nine years old I had them 70 percent of the time and of course since they’ve been gone, I’ve honestly felt like a huge part of me has died. Like literally, I have no purpose anymore – they were my joy, they were my everything. I looked forward to seeing them. That was what I lived for. Then all of a sudden, they were gone, and it’s like did my heart just stopped beating. I don’t understand how it’s so easy for them to cut me off like that, I just don’t understand it.”

Britney, who was upset about their strained relationship, then made a startling announcement: she won’t let her two kids see her “until I feel valued” at some point.

“With my kids now, making the claims that ‘she’s not good enough, she wants attention,’ yeah, I do want to be heard, and I’m angry. And I kind of subconsciously want to offend people because I’ve been so f**king offended. I’m afraid to inform you guys I’m not willing to see you until I feel valued. I won’t be calling your monitor weekly who never did his job of informing me when you guys were coming.”

The Crossroads actress continued to lament how she used to see her sons on her terms rather than her own, saying she should have valued herself “way more” but was “desperate” to see them:

“I gave you guys so much attention it was pathetic.”

She continued, saying: “All I know is my love for my children is more than anything and I’m sorry if I ever hurt you guys in any way, and me saying I’m a child of God is something I shouldn’t have said to you guys — and me saying it’s my turn to say so, that’s something I should have said to my father. I’ve always been told the only person who can fix your heart is the one who broke it. Go to the source. He needs to be told but that will never happen because I pray he burns in hell, but until then Jayden and Preston, I adore you. I was told you guys have blocked me, but I will speak here.”

This whole situation is so depressing. All we want for Britney, Jayden, and Sean is to get better.

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