Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck got back together and married last year, but the singer still remembers how sad she was when they had to call off their first wedding almost 20 years ago.

It was so painful after we broke up,

Jennifer Lopez told Zane Lowe in an Apple Music interview published Monday.

Once we called off that wedding 20 years ago, it was the biggest heartbreak of my life. I honestly felt like I was going to die.


It sent me on a spiral for the next 18 years where I just couldn’t get it right,

the New York-born actor continued.

But now, 20 years later, it does have a happy ending. It has the most ‘would never happen in Hollywood’ ending.

Jennifer Lopez and Affleck met on the set of their famous box office bomb “Gigli” in 2001. They got engaged in 2002. The paparazzi never stopped writing about their relationship, which was called “Bennifer.”

Even though they had planned to get married in 2003 with a ceremony full of famous people, they had to put it off “because of all the media attention.” The following year, they broke up.

Jennifer Lopez has ended her engagement to Ben Affleck,

a representative told People at the time.

At this difficult time, we ask that you respect her privacy.


When Jennifer Lopez got back together with Affleck in 2021, after she had broken up with Alex Rodriguez, the tabloid tragedy turned into a Hollywood fairy tale.

Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck

In July 2022, Lopez and Affleck got married. After their secret wedding in Las Vegas, they had a more traditional ceremony at Affleck’s property in Savannah, Georgia, in August.

Lopez is currently promoting her new album “This Is Me…Now,” which is a follow-up to the album “This Is Me…Then,” which she put out the same month she and Affleck got engaged 20 years ago.

She told Lowe the record

captured me at this moment in time when I was reunited with the love of my life and we decided we were going to be together forever.


Now I think what the message of [the album] is — if you have, like me at times, lost hope, almost given up, don’t,” Lopez said. “True love does exist and some things do last forever and that’s real. I want to put that message out into the world and that does take a lot of vulnerability.